'Tis the season...

...to be obsessed with things I'm not normally obsessed with.

1. Pumpkin-flavored things. I generally call pumpkins the "white man's sweet potato (LOL)." I had three of Starbucks' pumpkin spice lattes last week -- I like the iced ones better. And then, there's these:

Delicious ain't the word.

2. Lipstick. I used to think lipstick was just for old ladies. No really, lol...because I didn't know there were other colors besides red. Well well well. I actually got into this little groove because of a lipstick from Covergirl called Embrace (we're not going to talk about how I lost it after two weeks and have to buy it again -___-). Let's welcome Spellbound by Covergirl to the fam.

Bright &or bold is the way I like it.

That moment...

...when somebody pisses you off to the point of no return.

Like all the things they've said or done to you start coming back and adding up and this one just takes the cake...it's the end all, be all...it's the straw that breaks the camel's back.

I guess that was what my dream was about. I'm no prophetess or anything but it makes sense.

GoodNESS, I can't even begin to go to sleep now and I can't take anything because I have to get up for work at 6am.

Interesante.

"To dream that you are stung by a bee indicates that you have been wronged. Maybe you have been hurt by some stinging remark." (source)

I got attacked by bees in my dream last night...

"I hope you know, I hope you know
That this has nothing to do with you
It's personal, myself and I
We've got some straightening out to do.
And I'm gonna miss you
Like a child misses their blanket
But I've got to get a move on with my life
I've got to be a big girl now
And big girls don't cry"

Updates.

PAST:
- My brother got married. It was a very cute &I was so happy to see all my family and meet my new/extended family.
- I had a really good day yesterday. I like a chill atmosphere, so dinner was enough for me. I did have thee baddest dress on though, lol. At the end of the night, we walked past Starbucks and then a bar...there were two Black guys in Starbucks and my friend is like "they're pointing and staring at you" LOL. Then we walked past a bar and a White man asked to buy me a drink for my birthday...he was cute too, cuter than the Black men. I just said no because I don't think anybody felt like being out any longer, lol.

PRESENT:
- I don't know how I'm going to get a new license online, but I have to. That bright red "UNDER 21 UNTIL..." thing kills me. Plus I might need it for next weekend.
- I have to go to work today. Ugh.
- I'm super tired.
- I'm making a bucket list for my 21st year. Maybe I shouldn't call it a bucket list, maybe I should just say 21 rules or something. I've never done this kind of thing for just a year before, but I've also never felt this way about an age before. I kinda feel like my life is finally starting. It's weird.

FUTURE:
- I can't believe I'll be a senior in college in two weeks! Craziness.

8-6-9-1 B-DAY.

Finally legal!

"Those who walk with Christ
bring the presence of God to everyone around them."

I never realized how much I can touch people with just my presence.

I'm not trying to sound arrogant or super overly-religious or anything. I just see things in people that other people don't see. I never knew my purpose before...I'm starting to figure it out, at least a little bit.

303am.

I haven't been able to sleep very well for the past few days. I'm sure that will change when I start working. I can't wait; first day is Saturday!

W(h)ine.

So, I got to thinking about how a glass of wine would be a perfect way to end my night....which lead me on a journey to my obsession with stemless wine glasses. I don't know why I love them so much, but I do. They just look super cute/cool, way better than the normal ones. I want them soooo badly but I can't buy wine yet so I have no reason to buy them. :/ The day of my birthday, I'm getting some (along with a Zipcar account, but that's beside the point, lol).

50 days til 21

That's a lot lol. :'[

dinner!

Once in a blue moon, I can put my foot into something. ;]

"God gets the glory, of all things
Blessings that come my way, seen and unseen.
He, alone, is worthy of all honor and all praise
Hallelujah, just to our God."

A short note on life.

- I'm glad it's summer (after Monday) and that I will be spending it in DC. It's my first summer away from home; I'm anxious, but excited.

- My oldest bro is getting married in July! I love weddings.

- Job hunting is such a chore. I hate this process. I need a job sooo badly, ugh.

- I (somewhat) rearranged my room and decorated some more (still in progress); call it spring cleaning if you will - I'll be in my same room for another year.

Currently.

I feel great.

I don't mean great as in my emotions or physical being. I mean I feel great as in hopeful. God has been speaking to me for quite some time now, but I am finally listening. I could never be who I have the potential to be without being who I was before. I feel prepared to be happy, sad, disappointed, angry, frustrated, irritated, and maybe even all of the above because I know there is a reason for it all. And it's bigger than me. Lord, I am ready to let go and give You the control.

Not everything is going to work out the way I want it to, but everything will work out the way it's supposed to.

Happy Easter!

Ahhh, my blogger works again! I'm tooooo pressed, lol. Be back later today, or this week. I'm tryna get my current life/summer plans together finally...chu know, chu know.

But I'm so so happy. Finally, blogger! *side eye*

It's us or them.

I love being black. I love my people. However, I am by no means a radical activist, so I'm usually not one to cry out "RACISM!" at every turn of events involving a black man and white man.

With that being said, am I in the freakin' 1920s? What the hell kind of supposedly "post-racial" (yeah, I know) country do we live in where a white MAN can kill an unarmed black BOY and GET AWAY WITH IT?! This man literally got away with murder, claiming it as self-defense. The boy was unarmed and 17 years old! Come on, man.

I can't really say I'm in awe at the injustice at the hands of the law because it's been happening for years. And as much as I pray that it gets better, it seems that it's only getting worse.

It's us or them. And they don't care what they have to do to keep us from progressing.

I play it off, but I'm dreaming of you.

"I try to say goodbye and I choke
Try to walk away and I stumble
Though I try to hide it, it's clear
My world crumbles when you are not near"

Happy Friday. ♥

It's a shame that these Theban plays I'm re-reading for Greek Lit are a lot more entertaining than everything on television right now. o_O

Stages.

Bad Habits - Maxwell
"Baby, to tell the truth
When I'm sober, I jones for you
When it's over, I'm overdue"

Unthinkable (I'm Ready) - Alicia Keys
"I was wondering maybe
Could I make you my baby
If we do the unthinkable, would it make us look crazy?
If you ask me, I'm ready"

Almost Doesn't Count - Brandy
"Gonna find me somebody
Not afraid to let go
Want a no doubt be there kind of man, you came real close
But everytime you built me up, you only let me down
And everybody knows
Almost doesn't count"

"The more I search for a reason not to think about you, the more I find a reason to think about you. Do you know what that’s like? To think about not thinking about someone? It’s like a dog chasing their own tail…Sometimes I want to go back to the days before I knew your name, where you’re from, and what you do, back when I knew nothing about you, so I couldn’t miss you. Sometimes I miss those days more than I miss you. But those days are rare. As a matter of fact, those days are never."

- Jozen Cummings (of UIGM)

*Flips hair*

Break of Spring.

Last night, I went with my mom and her best friend to see Brian McKnight. It was in a casino, so I was feeling a little out of place because most people looked twice my age. But I looked cute, so it was cool. Also, he's actually a way better singer than I thought and awesome all-around performer.

Today, I haven't been doing anything except watching television and eating. Literally. That's all I was planning to do all break (plus sleep &homework), but I have eaten alot today. Like I don't even want to list everything because it's embarrassing, lol.

Laugh to keep from crying, I guess.

A short note on feelings.

If there's one thing I can't take, it's someone belittling my feelings because he or she feels that I'm in the wrong no matter what. There are two sides, versions, perspectives to a disagreement, so, since I'm human, I obviously have feelings too. That's not to say that the other person's feelings are invalid. But it IS to say that I have a right to feel some time of way about a certain situation because I'M HUMAN TOO.

Breathe.

It's only the first week of class and I already feel completely overwhelmed.

I'm not a "routine" type of gal, but I need to plan out my weeks ahead of time. It's the only way I'm about to survive AND succeed this semester.

I've been looking for a motto/saying to describe my year (2012) and what I'm trying to accomplish. Well, I made my bed this morning (which I never do) and I was inspired.

new habits.

I'll list what they are later.

Happy New Year!

It always takes me forever and a day to get ready for the semester after a long break, so I'm going to try and use these last few days productively so that I'm already in a productive mode. Here is a lil' bit of my break in pictures, courtesy of Cleopatra (my iPhone).
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