"Women wish to be loved not because they are pretty, or good, or well bred, or graceful, or intelligent, but because they are themselves."

- Henri Frederic Amiel

2011 favorites.

· iPhone 4 w/iOS 5
· Chipotle &Qdoba (only the nachos)
· Loop scarves
· Old Navy
· Ulta
· UD Naked Palette
· Sinful Colors polish in Envy (my favvvvvorite)
· Nook Tablet
· "Marvin Gaye and Chardonnay" Big Sean feat. Kanye
· "Party" Beyonce feat. Andre 3000
· LadyDiva
· "I Smile" Kirk Franklin
· "I'm A Boss" Meek Mill &Rick Ross
· MAC's Mineralize Skinfinish Natural
· Victoria's Secret body spray in Sheer Love
· Misfits
· Netflix
· Laughing, crying, moving along, and being alive

On 2012.

Not resolutions, just things. I could start now - I have, in fact. I just believe it's easier to mark progress with a fresh calendar beginning.

This is a long road to self-actualization.

Some of my friends have been having a tough time lately, so I'm going to have a long talk with Him when I go to sleep. We need it.

*I'll get back to blogging when school gives me my life back (one week :])

Happy Thanksgiving!

I am very blessed and even more thankful for the things and people that God has given me.

"Be thankful for what you have; you'll end up having more. If you concentrate on what you don't have, you will never, ever have enough."

- Oprah Winfrey

My morning.

http://projectgiveback.org

A short note about nothing.

The harder I search for something to write about, the harder it is to find something to write about. I have so much to do before I go home for Thanksgiving (my fav. holiday! :)), but that's alright. I would rather do it now because if I do, then it can actually be Thanksgiving break. I have been going and going, non-stop since September. This has been one of my hardest semesters (more than academically) thus far and I don't even know why. I always try to do my best but it seems like I fall short. I guess when you try hard is when you die hard. But wait 'til I get my money right. [/Kanye]

Because I have nothing to say today.

"Never doubt that a small group of thoughtful, committed citizens can change the world; indeed, it's the only thing that ever does."

- Margaret Mead

Oh, blogger.

Okay, I'm really back this time. I need to dip my hand back into this pool of REAL blogging. Not updating statuses, not tweeting, not "blogging" (looking at you, Tumblr) but actual blogging. We'll start with the encounter I had on Friday.

I went into Target to get a few things. I just threw on some random clothes &I was plain-faced but my hair had a little flip to it because I put curlers in it the night before. It looked pretty cute actually. Anyway, all I got was stuff to make sandwiches and then some random makeup products that I had been wanting. My cashier was ringing it up and the food was first so he got that; then the other stuff was kind of separated so he had to ask me if it was mine &I said yes. Then he’s like “you don’t need this stuff” and I just laughed; he said it so matter-of-factly that I thought he was making a joke of some kind. But then he’s like “you’re beautiful, man.” His tone of voice was something like he wished he had a girl like me. And I was like “thank youuu :DDDD” But I was also caught off guard because he seemed like the type of cashier that hates his job/doesn’t wanna engage customers more than he has to.

He low AND highkey totally pumped my head up/completely made my day. Genuine compliments without ulterior motives make me so happy.

Be back soon.

I want to adore. I want to be adored.
Why can't the adoration ever be mutual?

I love Howard. I don’t say it enough. I just feel like the kinds of people that inspire me on a daily basis I wouldn’t be able to find anywhere else.

Oh, and I went to Barnes and Noble today and got two books. I initially went to get a book by Michael Eric Dyson, but they didn’t have the one I wanted. I liked what I bought though. The first one is called Why Are All the Black Kids Sitting Together in the Cafeteria? by Beverly Daniel Tatum. I’m halfway through it and it’s pretty interesting. I identify with alot of the ideas mentioned, but that’s a whole other post. The other book is called Losing The Race by John McWhorter. I’m excited for that one. It’s funny how I’m not even interested in the same types of books I was when I was in middle/high school. I used to want read realistic fiction for teenagers, you know like the drugs/abuse/romance themes. Now I’m really interested in reading about Black people, lol…where we’ve been, where we are, and where we’re going. I should probably credit that to Howard, too.

I'm going back to Barnes and Noble tomorrow. I was going to get a moleskine notebook just for free write, but then I decided I was going to go over my budget, so I didn't need it. But I do though. It's going to be my life notebook. I have too many things I need to do. If I want to save the world AND become a scholar, I need to organize how I'm going to do it.

The beginning of my day was bad, but it ended on a good note.

My weekend was.....eventful? Yeah, that's the word.

It's rare that I have a moment when I feel like talking someone's ear off. Just laying with them and chatting about simple things or having a heart to heart.

But when that moment comes, no one is really around to share it with me.

"I just want you close, where you can stay forever."

Everyone hates Valentine's Day.

But, why?
"There shouldn't be a day dedicated to showing someone you love them." While this is completely true, think about how many other "holidays" are like this. How about Mother's Day? Wait, shouldn't I show the woman who gave me life that I appreciate her everyday? Same with Father's Day. Minus God, my daddy is the #1 man in my life and always will be. He deserves to be appreciated everyday, too, right? What about Thanksgiving? SHOULDN'T I COUNT MY BLESSINGS EVERYDAY?

So what's wrong with having a day for significant others to show each other how much they care about one another? Actually, who said Valentine's Day is ONLY for people in love? Give someone you love a gift from your heart. Whether it's a store-bought card or homemade brownies. Whether it's for your parent, roommate, best friend, or dog.

"Many women are pressuring men into relationships or V-day dinner dates with them so they can get lots of attention or feel loved on this special super romantic day." Wait, what? I can't even begin to explain how overly-generalized this is. I don't like Valentine's Day for the gifts I get (if I get any). I like Valentine's Day for the gifts I give. I love love. I love to love. I love seeing people happy.

Valentine's Day is about appreciating the special person in your life, just like any other holiday.

TGIF.

The makeup debate.

You know, whoever I date should know that I wear makeup. Plain and simple. I'm sorry to you men out there who like a "natural face." I guess you're just not the one for me. Now, I'm not saying that you'll never see me without makeup on because that's completely unrealistic. I have 8 o'clock labs that I can barely pull myself out of bed for, let alone put on makeup. So, I don't need it &nobody has to tell me that. It is merely used to enhance beauty.

But I like makeup. You can play with it and experiment. Try different looks to see what works best for you. Use different techniques for doing different things. Pick the best/most flattering lip shades for your skin tone. It's based on trial and error. You're an artist and your face is your canvas.

Makeup is fun.

"I learned the hard way
That they all say things you want to hear
My heavy heart sinks deep down under you
And your twisted words, your help just hurts
You are not what I thought you were
Hello to high and dry"

This man on Georgia: “Where we headed, the mall? Shoot, I’ll sit &wait. Buy you somethin’ to eat, too.” Lol.

hola.

"I've allowed you to make me feel...I feel so dumb...what kind of fool am I? You so easily, set me, aside."

One day, where I’ve been won’t matter. It will only be about where I’m going.

I have writer's block.

“I used to wake up some days and wish I’d stayed asleep
‘Cause I went to bed on top of the world
Today the world’s on top of me.”

"I'm determined to have life with no chains
Give me a clean heart and I will serve nobody but You."

My hatred for social networks keeps resurfacing.

Currently, the only reason that I keep my facebook and twitter is because reading about attention seekers'other people's lives (read: drama) entertains me when I'm bored. I don't update my status/tweet anymore because I never have anything to say. I don't want/need people all in my business like that. I'm trying to figure out the best time to delete both.

"But ok. I see where we are now"
"I don't even know what that means. Where are we?"

"I kind of miss you"

Welcome, 2011!

I greet you with an open mind, heart, and spirit. My motto for this year: explore, discover, learn, grow.